Journal Entry 20
~And so it ends~
The party seemed to be a great success. Everyone was enjoying themselves, eating cake, dancing and generally having fun.
Veronique had discovered the toy box, and decided to investigate.
To be so innocent, with no cares in the world or worries on one’s shoulder. I watched Veronique playing like that and for a moment I wished that I could be her.
Nothing to fear, always feeling safe and protected.
But alas, that could not be.
I was not Veronique, I was Maximillion, a girl who had become a woman, born into a family destined for greatness.
However I could not stop that niggling fear that had been a visitor in my thoughts all day… all was not as it seemed, this picture of domestic bliss was not to last.
Why was my sixth sense being so urgent and pressing about it? It was as if it was expected an unpreventable *impending doom*.
My heart sank as I watched Veronigue… What had I done to my family, what fate had I brought upon them?
Upstairs, things were not all as they seemed either.
Something just wasn’t quite right about Augustine.
But surely, surely it was just my sudden paranoia of late getting the better of me? A child is just a child after all… aren’t they?
What a *happie chappie*… I think my nerves are getting the better of me.
Joss did not stay over, even though we were to be married in a few days.
Another celebration to prepare for, at least my mind would be focused on other things.
I took Veronique upstairs to use the potty…
…seems like I was not the only one been creeped out by Augustine.
I went to shower and get ready for bed while the girls played with their blocks.
As I got ready for bed, I thought about how ridiculous I was being. “He” would hardly strike at home, would he? With neighbours as witnesses?
With the relief of that thought, I was suddenly overcome with tiredness. I needed to sleep, I needed my restless mind to hibernate for awhile.
I snuggled down into the goose down duvet cover. I found solace in the crispness of the freshly pressed Egyptian Cotton sheets.
As I drifted off into the abyss that is nothingness, a fleeting thought passed through my mind…
…someone was missing…
…and then I slipped into darkness.
*Harry Potter was downloaded from the exchange along with Hermoine Granger and Ron Weasley as a family.
Thanks to their creator.