Journal Entry 1
~The pain of loss~
I can’t believe that dad has died. He was still so full of life and seemed to have boundless energy.
Mom is a shell of her former self. She has been at his grave in all her spare time this last week. I don’t think she will ever be the same again.
Hopefully Lamar will be able to fill some of the gap that Jefferson feels in his life.
I immersed myself in work as a coping mechanism for the loss.
I quit my part-time job at the book store and got a job in the criminal industry. It is actually quite challanging and I have found that I am not as athletic as is needed and have had to spend alot of time working out.
I did however get promoted straight away to a cut purse which earns me $24 an hour. Not really that much is it.
On the third day of the job I got arrested and jailed for “possession of stolen property”.
While in jail it was Geraldine’s birthday. I feel so guilty for missing out on it.
Because everyone was still so upset about dad, noone was in the party mood. At least mom celebrated even though she was upset about dad and mad at me for being arrested.
Geraldine is not entirely thrilled by the fact our hair is the same and rushed to the mirror to see if she could do a ‘quick-fix’ of sorts.
Flattening it out a bit kept her happy until she could get to the hair salon.
They don’t feed you in jail!!
After a sleep, as those steel bunks are horrendous to lie on, I made birthday breakfast for Geraldine. As you can see she is typing away at her novel.
At least mom has started eating again, she is really broken hearted. She seem so lost. When she is not working, she is pottering in the garden or tinkering on our appliances.